My own computer now

I haven't blogged much for a few reasons the main one being that I haven't had a computer. The parents each have their own computer and both are wildly possessive of it. I can sort of understand because I think that computers are really personal objects now whereas before they were just the equivelent of household appliances. Anyway this all cut into my blogging time. The other reason I haven't blogged is because Little S is a full time job to keep entertained when we aren't in our own home. I'm exhausted from all the swimming pool business and video switching and shopping for Thomas the Train paraphenalia (note to self: in one year clear space in brain currently being occupied by the names of all the characters from Thomas series)

The good news is that we're in Mexico now and I have my computer back. Seb very sweetly transported it to Mexico for me three weeks ago. We're in the hotel and we have wireless for now, one of the few good perks about staying in the hotel for three weeks.

The other good news is that we found a house and all the papers are signed and we have keys. We have a one year lease and it's in a really nice community with pretty trees and open space for kids to play. It's in a gated community which is very American and not very authentic Mexican but it was clean and noise free which wasn't the case for many of the houses we looked at. I think Seb and I just want a few years of calm after renovating our house for over four years. The house is lovely and funnily enough it's built in the old Mexican style of a u shape yet it's very modern inside. We must have looked at 30 houses in all and I only looked at two things, the kitchen and the neighborhood. If the kitchen was a dump or too small it was an instant reject. If there was a busy street out front with noisy cars or no grass for kids to play I also said no. This house was perfect and the kitchen is wonderful (see photo). The one drawback is that it has a swimming pool. We absolutely did not want a house with a pool because of the danger with kids and because of the high electric bills, but we simply couldn't find anything we liked as much in our price range. I told Seb we could always drain the pool and build a temporary deck over top of it.

I can't wait until the furniture gets here from France so we can move in and set up house. There is the pressure of the baby coming in mid to early November so at the very least we have to get the clothes out of boxes and washed and ironed. Meanwhile we have to buy all of our electronics small and large and the list is long. It was way past time to replace most of our electronics in France and we didn't have a tv except for the video moniter Little S used for videos so we are excited to get some new stuff. Seb like most guys is psyched to get a flatscreen tv and I'm elated not to have a washing machine that leaks and has to be piped into the street when it empties.

We both feel homesick. I guess that's normal. I know when I go to Florida on vacation as I normally do each summer I am always eager to return back to France after about four to six weeks, suitcases loaded with comfort foods and new clothes of course. I love falling back in love with France all over again. This time I just feel empty and weird leaving Florida. "I am where again?" I seem to say to myself daily. And I guess most of that is because I haven't grasped much Spanish yet other than polite phrases and I'm back to where I was in the early days of living in France, --linguistically handcuffed. I also miss my friends!

Little S is doing well and speaking a lot more. He's still way behind other boys his age and he pronounces things all wonky like pillow for example he will call pee-yoe and James he pronounces Jee-mzeh. He still isn't potty trained and he acts much younger than most boys his age. I feel sorry for him. I know school will be tough for him but I can only hope that it will help him see how much he's missing by clinging to his baby years. I have been teased by my family and Seb as being a mother hen and it's been hinted at that I'm a huge reason behind his lack of progress. Maybe it's true. Like a lot of second time mothers I have a hard time seeing how I will find the affection for the sushi baby when all my love is already being used up on Little S. I don't want to divide myself in half. I don't think it's possible. I am an earth mother though so I know I'll be constantly holding and sleeping with the new baby and I know that Little S will be insanely jealous of this. He gets angry when it's not me who pours his juice in to a cup. I suppose everyone is right and it's me who has created this little monster by constantly indulging him.

Okay well, we're off to visit the new house and start cleaning. Apparently it was cleaned but it doesn't look it at all. I'm nesting after all so in my eyes it needs to be sanitized from head to toe before we can even begin to think of stocking it with baby things--as if!