When I look at the long list of things we need to do to finish the house I get this void that opens up between my neck and my stomach and I lose my breath for a few minutes. Over the years I've learned to cope with anxiety a lot better and I can usually trick my mind out of worrying by pushing the things to the back of my mind. It's a game and I know how to play it.
When others see my list and the house they make comments like "there's no way you can finish all that in one month" or "you're crazy" or "the poor kids!" It's true it's a lot of things to tackle in such a short time. Even the real estate agent who was really positive when she first saw the house has begun to have her doubts now that's she's come back a few times. The other day she shook my hand like she was offering me a dead salmon and flashed her capped smile, "we'll be in touch after the work is done" I asked her if it was okay to show the house you know, on speculation now. "no, no we never do that...it scares people too much."
I think we'll finish in time somehow. I'm not sure why but in spite of the anxiety, a big attack after the agent left, I am able to believe we can get this all done. It's true on paper it doesn't all add up. There's only a month left and in all that there's also a birthday party, things to sort, a moving company for three days and kids to take of, people to say goodbye to and vet visits for the cat, oh and the trip for a few days to Haute Savoie for our working vacation.
I think whenever you're in an impossible situation like this the best thing to do is to work as hard as you possibly can all the way up to the end. If you do this, a divine sort of energy will manifest and make sure it all gets done. It's almost kinetic, like the energy of all your work makes it appear and takes over the last few details. I've done this before and it always works. The last few things always get finished somehow. Looking back later you say "how did that happen? how did we do all that?" It's really a combination of faith and hard work. Besides there's not much else we can do so we might as well believe we'll finish it all, right?
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I just ran across something the other day that helped me accomplish some things I wanted to accomplish. Maybe it will help you. It's based on laws of attraction and called "Switchwords." Basically a mantra to help you and here's one that might fit your situation: To meet a deadline-DONE.
It's short and can't really take up too much of your time. Say it, believe it and the projects will get finished. Hope it helps!
That's great. I like that one, thanks.
there have been so many times in life when i have had to put my head down, not look to the sides, and just push through to get it down.
we call that "pushing things to the back of my mind" trick "blockage" .. as in, one of my superpowers is blockage. ;^)
sometimes all i can do is look ahead and think, in a year from now this will all be far behind me! :^)
good luck!
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