The new year

Usually I have all these goals but this year I'm finding it difficult. It's no surprise to me. I'm still recovering from the tidal wave of last year. Last year was a doozie!

It was my experience in this past year that you can set goals for yourself but your life can change with the snap of a finger and a nod of a grumpy boss and your husband can be sent to Paris just like that. You can't fight change and most times you can't see it coming. You can't really plan your life and hey maybe you shouldn't! I don't think changes should be questioned. I like to think there is a reason for things changing, a reason we can't really see.

I have a crumpled piece of paper I keep in my jewelry box that Seb gave me the day we met. He was trying to say a word to me and with his heavy French accent I didn't understand him so he wrote it. It says destin. On New Years Eve day Little S and I were organizing my things and he unfolded the paper. I just thought how odd. How odd that he would be handing me that paper that I tucked in my wallet ten years ago for safe keeping.

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I do have a few things I hope for in the coming year. Of course life could throw a curveball and mock me but if things stay the way they are these are my hopes:

that I will...

find a place for little Charlotte in local daycare two mornings a week in September at the start of the next school year (and I hope it's a place where she can be happy)

have our house at least 50 percent finished and have a real bathroom.

do more art and nature projects with Little S.

sew more and have a place in the house to do it that doesn't create chaos (and have a sewing machine again--Seb said maybe I can convert mine, yay!)

get my kitchen (aka the worst room in the house) organized so that it functions with all my things in it. This is the worst kitchen I have ever had in my life and I'm determined to turn it around and make it the best.

spend one day a week in the city and maybe make a connection to finding a p.t. job that I love.

learn more handy-woman skills so I can do more projects on my own.

make a household budget and stick with it.

take more photos and do more photo projects (learning more about my camera along the way)

read more (is this ever not on my list?)